Welcome to “Berry Business” which are posts about what is going on in the life of well me, Berry Winters! These are typically posted on Mondays. Not every Monday, but when they are they will always be found on a Monday.
Life feels stilted in may ways. I am unsure of which direction I am going. Sometimes I am offered and given things that feel like staying in Fort Wayne is the right direction, but there are other moments where I feel clear that I want to be back in San Francisco where I feel like a piece of my soul is. This week has really proven that to me with some things that happened that I cannot speak on directly because they occurred at work. Let’s just say that not every week in the life of a social worker is an easy one and this last week was a doozy full of a lot of various issues that I navigated, but showcase to me that sometimes we need to move forward not through things. Work will always be work, but this week took a lot out of me to the point that I took Friday off to try to reset.
I didn’t get to reset completely because the very next day drama hit in terms of where I live. I have been having issues with a roommate and it just feels like it hit a head finally this weekend. It feels like another guiding force towards moving away from this area and starting over. To go from the kind of last few weeks I have had at work to this being at home, this has just felt like an overwhelming lot. I keep pushing through it like I always do because that it what I am good at. Pushing through rough times and becoming stronger for it.
Becoming stronger sometimes is hard when things are going on. I have been walking on a fractured ankle for awhile now. I am supposed to be scheduling for a surgery, but that hasn’t occurred yet. The surgery is to remove a well-polished bone fragment that is sitting behind the big bulb area of my ankle. It appears that it may have been there for some time, potentially years. I have just been walking on it like it was nothing for those potential years. I have recognized that I have a high tolerance for pain, which I think also contributed to some of the issues I see in terms of autoimmune related issues that I now have. I am hoping this surgery will be scheduled relatively soon. I did call and they said it should be a call this week, as they had to wait on prior authorization related stuff from insurance companies. Got to love those good ole’ insurance companies.
The world has felt heavy in other ways. I don’t want this to be the most pessimistic or heavy post, but have ya’ll been in the real world? Death of Charlie Kirk and the cancellation culture that came after this. Censorship is probably a better word for this. I was flabbergasted when they cancelled Jimmy Kimmel, but heard that Fox News kept an anchor that literally called for the death of homeless individuals by lethal injection. I saw the clip, this is the real world people. It is a LOT. I keep seeing these three worlds circling around my life, which are Personal, Professional, and Political. They all feel like they are three big plates spinning on a stick that we are all supposed to keep going at all times, but mine are starting to feel like they have a lot of extra things sitting on top of them. Maybe some cute knick-knacks from the Avon Lady or something have been placed on them because they sure do feel heavy. Releasing and venting always seems to help a bit to process the world around me, but wow the Political world needs a reset. I truly have had enough us against them mentality for a lifetime.
On a lighter note, I have continued to find myself immersed in the “Big Brother” 27th season and TONIGHT (I am writing this on 09/28/2025 which was the finale) is the last episode. I get to see who wins the whole shebang. It is down to Morgan, Vinnie, and Ashley. I am hoping that Ashley pulls off an upset and see who she takes with her because I think that honestly would be entertaining television right there, but honestly most of the people I enjoyed from this season went away very early on. The entire season felt like it was a bit too happy happy love love towards each other. In a normal season, Zach would have used his power which would have changed this entire season. One bad move changed the entire season. It is whatever now though since the season draws to a close in just a few measly hours!
I have also wrapped up watching the first three seasons of “The Gilded Age” based on a recommendation from a co-worker. It is very Downton Abbey which makes sense since they are created by the same person. I saw myself this weekend devouring the final 2 season 3 episodes. Man, this show got intense right at the end. It is a great historical show that is full of drama and intrigue. Glad I watched it and I have to thank that co-worker for recommending it tomorrow when I am at work.
The last thing for this “Berry Business” is that I started taking a trip down a familiar street this weekend. An old friend that I haven’t visited in some time… What street you ask? Turn in later this week to find out.
